Thursday, August 12, 2010

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So I figured I should throw out a quick post just for the sake of throwing it out there. I won third place at the Washington County Fair last Saturday. That was an encouragement to my musical side...and it wasn't too bad to walk away with an extra sixty bucks either, haha. In other news, lately I've been contemplating my future again. I know the Bible mentions how we make our plans, and the Lord sometimes changes them, etc. And lately, I've been contemplating my future. Sure, I'm only 17. I have time. But as much as I want to be a classical pianist, I can't get over how much joy I get from singing. Like, it's insane, and part of me has a hard time believing I've only known that for a couple of years. Last night, I literally sat at the piano and sang for almost three hours straight. I do that with piano, but at times, it feels like such a trudge. I can sing while playing piano until my voice is insanely hoarse, and I still don't feel the "work" side of it. And I'm excited about being able to have legit voice lessons this year! In other news, I've calculated out my credits, and at the end of the summer, I'll be almost exactly 1/3 of the way done with my credits. Which makes me ponder - what to do after graduation? Sure, I'll almost definitely HAVE to stay for four years simply to take piano lessons and choir (although, those two courses will probably be the only reason I'll have to stay for my senior year). But what after that? I'm pretty sure I wanna go to grad school, but where? And then I've been contemplating the "connections" I have musically. And how I'm surrounded by these incredibly talented people. And how I don't come anywhere near how amazing they are. E.g., my frenemy (new word for friend/enemy) is giving solo piano concerts somewhere on the East Coast. My best friend is in the opera Carmen at an opera house in PA, and he told me that one of the vocalists told him that a different opera house in North Carolina would love to fly him out/book him a hotel AND pay him to play certain opera roles. Already. This guy's only 19, and usually, you don't start getting bookings like that until you're like 23 or 24. And then there's me. Just this random girl who happens to love music. I just wish I could see exactly what the Lord is doing in my life, and where He's leading me. And then, lately, I've been considering marriage, etc. I think about how when I was younger, I wanted to be married by the time I was like 16 (ridiculous, but hey, when you're 8, 16 seems like FOREVER away, right, haha?). And as of lately, I'm not so sure I wanna get married. Like yeah, I want kids, but every time my mom jokes about it and says that she's "praying that I'll marry the Godliest, most handsome man in the world," I tell her that I want to wear a wedding dress. But I don't know if I want to get married. I want the pomp and circumstance; the ability to dress like a princess for one day in my life. But I don't know if I'd ever want to make a lifetime commitment like that. It's not just about staying faithful. It's about giving up EVERYTHING to one guy. Dreams, ambitions, career, whatever he wants. And not like I consider myself "domineering", but I don't know that I'd ever want to do that. But again, I'm only 17. I have a good 6 or 7 years to ponder those things. Anyway, quick vid here...I LOVE this song by Ingrid Michaelson (she's my summer music addiction this year, haha). This is called Highway. It sorta reminds me of leaving off for college once again and the way my mom always says that time goes by so quickly, etc. and every time I hear it, it makes me a bit teary.