Bye Bye 2008, Hello 2009

I haven't really posted on here lately because I really haven't had much to write about. Christmas was pretty cool, pretty normal. So far, I've been spending practically my whole Christmas break watching tv, IMing, and recording my prescreening stuff for college apps. And wow, these college apps are proving to be alot more difficult than I'd thought they would be. Like, I'm not sure if I'm lacking motivation and diligence to do them, or if they're actually meant to take a lifetime to complete. Regardless, I'm glad that at least I know where I'm applying. Colburn, Westminster Choir College, Swarthmore, and Chicago College of Performing Arts. I'm sorta thinking of adding UW-Madison into my list...I'm not really sure though. But since it's a state college, I think I have a bit more time to ponder it. As far as the New Year goes, I'm really looking forward to it. Because this upcoming year will hold alot of milestones for me, Lordwilling. My drivers license (hopefully....), graduating (okay, no formal grad ceremony or anything, but hey, I'll be done with highschool, and that's good enough for me,lol), and going to college (which means I'll be somewhere by myself for the first time ever). No, I really don't have any New Years' resolutions. I mean, I honestly don't see the point of them anyway.....I always break them,lol. And looking back on this past year brings lots of memories. The good and the bad. I have to say that the biggest highlight of this year was going to Eastman. I mean, that was the first time that I was actually alone somewhere for a long period of time without people that I knew. Or, I got to know them, but when I first got there, I didn't know them. And I think that Eastman taught me alot of stuff about responsibility. Like, for example, I got written up there once for being out practicing with someone past curfew. And sure, I was like 5 minutes over the curfew, and I wasn't even doing anything bad (not to mention I was late not because I didn't care, but because I had thought that the curfew was an hour later), yet that was the first time that I couldn't get out of trouble by smiling....or giving a sad face, or whatev. No, I had done something wrong, and I had to face the consequences of it head-on. And not only that, but I had to make decisions. Like, chill and swim at the YMCA with friends, or go practice for four hours. And, stay up in my bed until 2 and wake up at 6, or go to bed at 12 and wake up at 6. And, I walked away with a greater appreciation for classical (and okay, also world) music. I've also really enjoyed taking classes at UWRF. I mean, I didn't take a full college load, but if I include the hour of piano lessons that I took that would count as 2 college credits (but I didn't take them for college credit), I had 10 credits, and I really did learn a bit about what college is all about. Anyway, I think I'm gonna go watch some more tv. I know, I know, I'm TOTALLY wasting away my Christmas vacation. But hey, that's what Christmas vacation is for, right? :p Later,
Rachel

End of semester. Seriously?!

Okay, so this upcoming week is my final week of school for the semester. Amazing. I mean, I'm already alost halfway done with this school year. Just finals to go. And I seriously cannot believe how close I am to auditions too. I mean, in a little less than two months, I'll be having my first live audition. It seriously seems crazy to me. And like, I have 8 months left at home, Lordwilling. That seems absolutely insane to me. And honestly, this semester has flown by. Not like I regret it going by fast at all. And I'm very thankful for this semester. I think it has prepared me for what college will be like a little bit. And it's funny because I've already started to keep a bag stuffed with all of these new clothes I keep buying for college,lol. Is that lame or what,lol? Anyway, I'm sure you guys have all heard of the whole Caylee Anthony case thing. And it's been something I've been thinking alot about the past couple of days. Like, it seems incomprehensible to me how a mom could do such a thing to her baby. And you wonder, where did it all start? And as I start to think more about it, it's like, it obviously didn't start with the murder. No, the whole process started back when she was a kid. According to her life's pattern, she has always been a selfish girl who was known as a liar. But stuff like this makes me wonder....how can people outrightly see the wickedness in killing a baby like Caylee, yet not grasp the concept of how abortion does the EXACT same thing? I mean, sure, Caylee actually walked around on this earth for 3 or 4 years, but regardless, a person is a person. If only such a fuss was made over every single abortion that happened in this country. And if only people actually did get prosecuted for ending a human life; for murdering a real child and throwing it away in the garbage or burrying it. Although, I guess what's chilling about the whole Caylee incident is how her mother didn't care at ALL about murdering her daughter. There was no remorse from her until the detectives actually found a body. Whereas I guess usually, with an abortion, people DO regret it. And the women DO remorse over their loss of a child, most of the time anyway. Anyway, I guess I just don't understand it all, and why it went so far until Caylee was actually murdered. Like, why wouldn't a friend of Casey's intervene after constantly hearing Casey speak of Caylee in such a negative tone all of the time? Or why wouldn't have a neighbor seen what was going on and reported Casey? I just don't understand. Later,
Rachel