Not watching the wall

Well, I didn't make it to the finals in the Schubert Club, but that's okay. I had fun and it went okay. I ended up having a panel of judges sorta like American Idol. There was the Randy (okay, it was a lady though) and she wrote some good critiques on my music, but also wrote that she liked my performance. Then there was the Simon (and yes, he was a guy) who was pretty mean. His only statement on my etude was, "It doesn't seem like you know what you're doing with this piece." and the other critiques were basically the same. I sum his critiques up with, "You don't know what you're doing, you piece ruiner!" And then, there was the Paula. She was really nice, and her final statement was something to the degree of I have promising talent and to not give up. Ah, the joy of judges. And then yesterday, I had the ACT (dum dum dum dummmm). And I've come to realize that I'm not too good at test taking. After about fifteen minutes, I get a bit distracted and start staring at the ceiling or something and then realize that I'm timed and stuff and try to focus once again. And also, I'm not good at taking extended tests. After about the three hour mark, my brain turns to mush and I can't think! Anyway, now time to explain the title of my post. The other day, I was reading another convicting devotional from Joni Eareckson Tada. It was called "Don't watch the wall". She explained that race car drivers are trained that the must not look at the wall, no matter how hard they get bumped, or off track, or anything. That if they look at the wall, they'll freeze. She puts it in everyday circumstances, like how we look at the "Walls" in our lives and as a result, tend to get frozen up and worry about the future's problems rather than the present's opportunities. She reminds us that Paul says that we need to set our hearts on things above, and adds,"It's advice worth following, or you just might hit the wall." And that is something I really need to pray about. Instead of complaining or worrying, I need to focus on things above, not the wall right in my face. Later,
sweetggirl